"Hey, enjoy the bus ride okay? "

Took me hours to decide whether it was best to text her. Sigh, life.

Now it's back to work. Doing overtime today, wish me well.

Hope you have fun roaming the streets of KL. I shall stay out of it.

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It takes alot of persistence and courage to not seek for your number.

It takes alot of self control to not find reasons to text/call you.

It takes alot of braincells, to stop thinking about you.

It's giving me a major headache and heartache.

I'm under intense pressure. Handling 3 projects at the moment. It's as if I'm a fresh graduate, but the problem is I have absolutely null idea of what I'm doing. This is so frustrating. I'm trying to work as much as possible, but at the same time, this unnecessary pressure is killing me. I'm getting myself numb with all the workload, but I can't stop myself from thinking, and thinking.

Meeting deadlines, meeting tenders. Aaarrgghhh..frustrating...!

"Lets pretend you’re mine
We could just pretend, we could just pretend, yeah yeah
You got what I like
You got what I like, I got what you like
Oh come on
Just one taste and you’ll want more

So tell me what your waiting for

Come on baby we ain’t gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
You know you wanna be together
And I wanna spend the night with you
Yeah, yeah, with you, yeah, yeah
So come with me tonight
We could make the night last 4ever"

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I may seem strong, on the outside, but from the inside, I'm just as scared as you are.
You know what you want, you seem certain.
But I don't. I'm still uncertain.
Each step I take, comes with a consequence. Just a matter of me, being brave enough to take which.
I know one thing's true.
I want a consequence which has you in it.

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Crushed, could just be the right word.

Sometimes, I find myself drawn slowly towards your direction. I keep silent, fear to say a word which could jeopardize anything. I see you smile, see you laugh, sometimes, see the way you babble your way to cheer me up. I thought you were having a good time, with me around. And then you said, that you felt uncomfortable with the silence. It was awkward.

I heard the words from your mouth. You said you were selfish, you wanted a great time, but not with a stone hedge. I'm sorry. Couldn't find the right words to defend myself. Probably the best thing to do is just keep quiet, let you be straightforward.  It's okay, both of us have changes, both of us need the time to adapt. I'm just apologetic with the fact that I bore you. I didn't know. I wanted to give you the best, but my best, is always not enough. I'm too numb already. I have no idea how to express the way I feel. Especially the way I feel about you. 

Confused. Just as confused as Day 1. Felt misused.
Nah, this is probably the time I should stop thinking. You should understand the way I feel. It's still strong.

"Christmas Eve Party" - Pretty much sums up everything.   love the artwork!

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We've been together, for 3 whole years. We never took the time to appreciate one another, until we got lonely. We've been through ups and downs, emotional turmoils, flunk tests, but most of the time, we succeed, we made it through.

Tomorrow, as the 5 of us would be heading to work in the morning, 1 of us would be flying from KLIA. To a foreign country.

4 months worth of spending SO MUCH time together, and now, we are all separated, each thrown into different corners of the country. 1 is flying off to the Land of Slanting Towers and the hot coochie mammas.

You know we love you, bitch. Even though we said we are gonna block you on GTALK, and with the time difference, we would never bump into one another. Yet, you can always come to my blog, read the happening stuffs we've done, without your presence.
And yes, Facebook-the powerful tool of updating you with our gatherings.

Go with RM, come home with Euros.
Take care Noiseemunkee, and don't bring back anything more than Euros.

*Picture courtesy of Khian's camera, Jhua's photoshopping, and 6 pretty, handsome models.

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You probably don't understand me, but the last thing I want to do now, is to pressure you.

I ordered myself a Dark Cherry Mocha Frap today, out of the blue. It's probably cause I missed you, too much.

"Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life"

The little vacation got cancelled. It's okay. With great hopes comes disappointments. I've learned.

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天啊！我真的玩不起！
Loss of mental and emotional capacity.

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For most of the things I've done, I have always felt a slight tinge of regret. Last night, was one of it.

I have self control. It doesn't matter if it's a lot or a little. I do have self-control.
Sometimes, if I wanna do something, and I know it's wrong, I will stop doing it, even if it kills me.
But if I wanna do something very eagerly, and if I can justify my actions, I would do it.

Confusing? I'm as confused as you are, as I'm typing this entry.

I didn't come home last night. Did some things which I am not proud of, did something which I used to be afraid of doing, and regretted badly for not pushing my luck further.
Yeah, it's true when I was told, "I know you will do it, but at the same time, I know you are scared."

I'm scared of the consequences. I do. I have guts as small as the chicken liver.

I really wanna write a very clear story, but I have to leave again. Plans are aplenty this weekend, and I have still not write my weekly report. T_T. Bummer!

Have you ever wanted to stay beside someone, for as long as you can? And wished that time would stop, for eternity?

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