"You don't know me, you don't even care"

-boston-

Today was a really really long day. The first thing I noticed in the morning when I reached school was the field. I always look at it as I walk to class and I noticed that the air was thick with dust. Disgusting. Today, I sang all day and did a little addmath. I skipped EST. I felt like barfing all day because I had air in my stomach as I ate dinner quite late yesterday. During choir practice, I walked  and tripped and a nail scratched my leg and left a deep wound. I was tired and sleepy. I went home and slept. I was a little nervous about the performance, so I didn't sleep well and kept dreaming bout the concert and waking up every 15 minutes. I had quite a terrible time but you know, I try to plaster a smile this time. Karyen came over soon after and abo drove us to the venue. I had heels on that I couldn't walk on. Guess what? They're pretty retarded and broken. Nevertheless, I try to be happy.

Choir was alright and there we didn't embarrass ourselves. The ballet was....alright. I enjoyed the first part. We walked to row of cafes along Kinta River. While walking, my feet hurts so bad that I took off m shoes and walked. Still, smile bout it. Walked back the same way and Wing changed shoes with me quarter more way. She tried to piggy back me too. XD

I am tired, annoyed and pressured.

I do not like being like this. Now that I think about it, what was there for me to smile about anyway. I did had a pretty horrid day. Sometimes I wonder how I can be so happy and okay about it. How other people can stand my positiveness at their sorrow. I usually say that we can't  both be sad but heck, maybe they actually find it annoying inside.

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what the hell am I talking about...

so tired.. must be tired the JunNe talking. I'm not even gonna read this post again. Grammar and spelling errors, go away.

I have to wake up at 4.30 in the morning tomorrow for a field trip. Crazy? Totally man...................

and I hate walls. I'm too afraid to bash em up to find out what's behind it. I think I'll ignore the wall and draw the path on the wall and be delusional and think I'm happy..

Delusional...

God...

[[ music ]] void
[[ mood ]] aggravated

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