at times like these... I wonder how to break down and let loose. Also at times like these... I wonder how to climb back up when everyone's steping on me.

Pressure me no likey.

Today was just a really really bad day. I felt like I had no one to console to. And yet, what is there to console to? It's just pressure. It's not like anyone can do anything to get rid of it or lift it up al little.  So here I am knitting a red  flag and a white flag to prepare to raise either one on the day of battle.

Extreme aggravation. It came in such inconspicuous manners...

[[ music ]] goodbye love
[[ mood ]] aggravated

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Look at this baby.... just LOOK at it...

WHY?!!!?? WHY FOOJUNNE ?? WHHHHHHHY???

ipod TOUCH. not phone... IPOD TOUCH 8GB

I must get it. does anyone know how much exactly it is in an apple retail store in Malaysia NOW? I am oh so desperate to own this thing. I'm not even greed! 8GB will do! I am THIS CLOSE *does finger measurement of 1cm* to owning this thing!!!

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Dear JunNe,

you are so doomed. You are in so much shit. Your life sucks and you should hate your life. Look at yourself! Studying and studying! Nothing is even sinking in!! Why are is this happening to you?? God you suck. You're getting rashes out of pressure and even pimples! You're even getting weird sleeping hours! you even DREAM and THINK of what you have to do and how big of a load you have to do the very next day. You are sick foojunne, SICK! AND no one can save you! NO ONE!!!!!!!!!!!! DO YOU KNO!?!?!?!??!

Love and concern,

Ennuj.

Dearest Ennuj,

I know. And I find ppl who are so relaxed annoying.  I also find ppl that do not care, or the ppl that SAY they want good results and are not lifting a finger, annoying. You want it, GO GET IT LA! STOP TELLING ME HOW DUMB YOU ARE! I already know you're dumb okay. So stop reminding me how much I hate DUMB PPL! what am I going to do Ennuj? And I don't think my parents plan to visit any malls when we're in KL.... how...sad. I want my ipod tooooooouuchhh..

But seriously, I really hate my life now and I am depressed.... so unhappy with the present...  I am working...and if Istill don't do well enough. I don't know what I'm going to do.

Love and depressed,

Junne.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:

1. The man of all men [waow]

2. The goofman of all goofmen *crowd applauses*

3. The gentleman of ALL GENTLEMEN *Crowd hoots*

4. The cheesiest of all chese *Crowd throws flowers*

5. The sweetest of sweets *takes of hat*

6. The kindest of kind * crowd bows*

7. The flirtiest of all flirts * crowd fly kisses *

8. The stingiest of all stingy people * crowd nods*

9. The sensitive of all sensitive *blows tissue*

10. One of the bestest friend of all friends * shakes hand*

I INTRODUCE TO YOU LADIES AND GENTLEMEN,

CHENGWENGKEEA.K.AKAI!

Picture was stolen from your OWN blog, so no hard feelings aight~

Boy, you are loved and I don't really need to do this to prove it. You have been spectacular. Over the pass lets say...three years? you have been supportive and patient. I could do the whole mushy thing like how much you did for me and how much I should value you but I think that's bullshit. It's your birthday and it's all bout you! YOU ROCK!

And to end this post with a dash of kai-ness class, I shall end it with a quote~

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

you are one of a kind, and number one in my heart!

YOU LOVE ME RIGHT??!?!

YEAAA!! I KNOW!!

YOU SSOOOOO DO~!

HAPPY SWEET 17TH YEARS OF DESTRUCTION BABY!!!

copyright PQ for last line

 ps: HAN RAWKS TOO FOR ADDMATH FOLIO!!! YOU ARE THE BOMB !!

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Great.

Rain on my parade and let your thunder and lightning strike me.

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now, very good thanks to Mr. Teoh for printing my ADDMATH FOLIO

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Ya know, midterm's really good at putting a girl down..

sore,sick and sad... tripple s.

where are those tripple 'c's when I need them..

....

ipod touch...........

[[ music ]] Lies
[[ mood ]] aggravated

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Life sucks when cracking your brain with a crowbar and digging the insides with your hands still isn't enough to satisfy the results which are evidently beyond human reach as I as I am only human and cause 'he' who controls all, thinks that life is just this giant board game while you throw the 'dice' to move or casually flip the dice to a '1' or a '6' just to by all means, control everything.

I had addmath paper today.

[[ music ]] FIRE-2NE1
[[ mood ]] annoyed

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I had the weirdest dream yesterday. I took a very short nap and ended up dreaming this really creepy thing. I dreamt that I was in school, and we just got our year books. I was hanging out with the new girl in class. She's fun but I wonder why she was in my dream. We were celebrating bout something and we were filled with such joy. One thing lead to another, me and a few classmates were jumping on top of a white lorry at the grassy area near the staff room and the science labs. How peculiar it was.. just when I was about to get down from the vehicle, it starts to tip and I prepare myself for the crash. I was safe but no one really panicked. I was on the ground with my yearbook. I knew it was the year book as it had the usual ship on it, like we do every year. After the crash, I was suppose to head to the canteen but turned back as the bell rung. Everyone went to class, but a few others went back as their year books were still on the grass. I was one of them. I recall Karyen and sonia being there too. I went back but it wasn't there. That's when I start running. I ran around the compound, looking at the ground. I ran faster and faster. It felt good and somehow, I was in another place. And yet, I was still running and I spotted a few others too but soon, lost contact. I kept on running but wandered far. I ended up in this weird mall. The mall had a very long bridge attached to it which led to somewhere I could not see. It road stretched very far. It was raining. It had the normal traffic. I saw the yellow lights from the cars coming towards the building and red lights from the cars driving away from the building. All I knew was, I'm supposed to cross that bridge to get where I'm supposed to be. Then I saw Aniebelle. I'm not that close to her, so that was a puzzle too. She told me she could drive me home. I hopped on to her car and we started chatting. Somehow, I realized something. I was dead for two years. Missing or whatever and no one knew where I went. Then I woke up.

Then the next day. Today, In real life la. What a horrid day. First, I had modern math exam. I didn't know it was today. I can't believe this. I didn't revise a single tiny arse bit and it was PAPER 2. Damn it I tell you. Sure, most of you would say, modern math only maaaa.... Suuuuuuuuuureeeee...would you say that if you were in my shoes.
Still, there was hope. Modern math paper was after recess. Yet, life was cruel. Fate's got this schizophrenic sick way of toying with my life today. We had the stupid Teacher's day celebration right after recess. So my one hour of hope just flew out the window. In THAT one hour, I could've saved myself 8 MARKS! This is just the BEGINNING OF MY HORRID DAY! THE DAY ISN'T EVEN OVER YET!

Which then brings me to after school. Since everyone in the house asked me what time I was done form school today, I expected them to be punctual. But noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...........
My family has this PROBLEM with being punctual. I waited for half hour. I wondered if it was MY fault! I wondered if I didn't make it clear. Mumbling and grumbling, I walked to the bus stop cause there wasn't a PAYPHONE IN THE SECOND GATE! OOOOOOODLE JOY! Walking there wasn't a problem. It was when weird motorcycle guy drove close on purpose! THAT was the problem! SCARED THE CRAP OUTTA ME! He swung by and told me I dropped money!
NO! I DIDN'T DROP ANY MONEY!
Is this some Chinese joke that I don't know of? I'm not sure? Telling girls "lenglui, lei tit jor lui arrh!"
Is this something I should know?!
No one in this family is punctual! NO ONE! THE PUCTUAL ONES AREN'T EVEN IN THE COUNTRY!!!!!!!

Foo, Abo, now I value your punctuality dearly. I have gotten a good taste of punishment. So now, please come back.

STUPID DAY!

the connection sucked just now. so i couldn't post this.

now that i am awake and i see that the connection works, let me add something.

STOP WEARING MY SLIPPERS! I have only ONE PAIR of NORMAL slippers! you have MILLIONS of shoes! wear THOSE! IF YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED, MY FEET ARE TWO SIZES BIGGER THAN YOUR SO CALLED PRECIOUS FEET! SO DON'T WEAR MY SLIPPERS! Don't get ME YELLED AT!

FARK!

I've be scowling so much all day that my head hurts. Damn you physics. I hate dreaming bout knowledge. My head feels like it's going to split into two now...

sigh...

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alright.  NOW that I finally found some time to spare, I am very pleased to annouce that my exams are almost OVER!!!! I still have one EST paper on Monday. That's all. Still, today, I have finally found the time to share with all of you about my experiences during examsMy exams were held in the school Trinity Hall. All form 5 science classes are inside. I was seated in the front portion of the hall, third row. During my exam, I have learnt many weird things and have seen many weird things too. For the past two weeks, I have achieved epiphany. Shall I list them now?

1. I realized which teacher is annoying. Why? I think she fails to notice that we are all safe from hearing impairment.

2. I saw the most disgusting seen of my life. Please la people. Don't drool when you sleep. Close your mouth. Plus, it's not nice to drown your answer sheet, eraser and your arm with drool. It's pretty unhygienic. Furthermore, you should at least have some sympathy for the teacher who picks up your paper AND for the paper of the person who sits in front of you. Scratch that, with THAT amount of drool, the next ten papers on top of yours.

3. When you run out of test pad paper, run out of the hall IMMEDIATELY buy some. STEAL it if you must! You WOULDN'T want someone walking along your row; COUNTING EACH AND EVERY PERSON'S number of test pad paper, to come to you, disgusted, saying that you are taking advantage of the school in quite a loud volume.

4. Jia min can sleep in the most miraculous and uncomfortable positions.

5. It took me a very short time to gain momentum on sleeping late this year.

6. I am not very sick this time. That creeps me out. I get weird and creepy dreams instead of getting sick. In comparison, I think I personally prefer to get sick. When I say weird dreams, I really mean weird dreams. Those dreams are me half dreaming and half studying. As if the only thing I know how to say are formulas from physics. I hardly got any sleep at all.

7. The OBVIOUS experiments aren't very important.

8. do not sap because the things you read didn't come out, it's rather aggravating.

9. Fat girl in class has this fetish of tying her hair again and again and flipping it multiple times during exams.

10. Fat girl goes to the toilet after every paper she does.

11. Fat girl "near" me sleeps after 2 seconds they say ‘start'.

12. I saved Zi Hui's butt from failing cause she forgot to pass up her answer sheet.

13. Yijern is happy during exams this time round.

14. There was a dead moth near our bags and the ants ate up only ONE of it's wings and left.

15. I realized how OOOLLLD I am, now that I'm in form 5.

16. Apparently, there's this new hair style where everyone with short hair ties a bun.

17. Since Abo was in Scandinavia, I had no sufficient supply of tea, I had to count on sugar and sweets.

18. I am very thankful to those who talked to me during exams.

19. thanks loads to mr teoh who printed my addmath folio.

20. Loads and crates of love to Mr Liew who GAVE me his addmath folio.

21. Loads of thanks to Ping Qing to prank Kai even though exams were damn near.

22. After exams were over on Friday, I went to tuition earlier and saw Karyen. We had fun in our own little world, bobbing and dancing at our seats while mouthing the lyrics and blasting Bigbang and TVXQ songs in our ears. Who cares of it was embarrassing and everyone stared?!?! lol...we got so high...

Yea. Had a great time at Jing Wen's birthday party today. Will blog when I have decent pictures.
P/S: Fifi [Japanese chin ] is SO pregnant, that she can't even WALK!

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I don't think anyone would want to be in my shoes right bout now...

if you think rock bottom feels bad, try being me.

where are my ear phones...

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A house with a never ending amount of doors. I've been here for sixteen years and yet the hall still seems everlasting as I walk pass each door, trailing my fingers on the wall. Every time I open a door, it'd lead to more, signifying that in life, I'd always have a choice. There shouldn't be any dead ends. Worst case scenario, two doors. I choose one and there'd be more to choose. Always. The house is such a huge maze that I can't go back to where I started. Not too back at least. Decisions made can't be changed and which ever I choose will be my fate. I feel that the way I write is different now. I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing really. Like someone just keeps switching my pen when I pen things down.

One must be composed in all situations. Easier said than done, but I believe this is one thing I can manage. Give me your best shot! There are three strikes and I bet my life that I'd only need two. I'd whack whatever you aim at me in the second throw.
Today, I reached my hand out again. Guess what? I grabbed something.

Not to self: War's not over. Got to start building more walls.

[[ music ]] haru haru
[[ mood ]] anxious

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Tomorrow is picture day. When you join alot of clubs, it is really difficult. Especially if you're in four clubs and each club requires you to wear a different uniforms and if you have a post.  You'd have to run around calling everyone asking and borrowing. It's really troublesome. It's also troublesome when you don't know what time everything is cause you have to change. It is ALSO AGGRAVATING when two clubs are during the SAME time.

busy busy busy....thankgod it isn't five...

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hello.

my friends hate me today.

yea.

fullstop.

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