connection sucks.

great. suck up my last life force.

BRILLIANT SCHEME

To think that my dad is more frustrated with the connection problem.

[[ music ]] Lollipop-Bigbang ft 2NE1
[[ mood ]] annoyed

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You really don't know when you're changing or when you're acting different. You really don't know when you're showing off or when you're hurting someone. Which also means you really don't know when you're being dumb or when you're acting smart. It all just comes too naturally for people...

I can't look at the people I dislike or hate. It just makes me dislike or hate them more. It also makes it easier to lie to them and make them feel comfortable. I do not like confrontation with the people I dislike. As sweet as it may be to tell them off and vomit everything out, it's got it's consequences too. When I look at them, I feel an imense sense of disgust and irratation. That's when the blood starts boiling. It's as if they tore our my heart and smeared my life with the blood. It's very irratating. Then the fits will start. In my head ofcourse. It's when I imagine myself clawing the wall in desperation of escape. That's when tiny pieces of brick fall as my knuckles bleed. And all because I imagine myself being stuck in an empty room with the person I dislike. After that, the headache comes. I get very bad headaches when I'm mad or upset. A rush of adjectives that I do not even remember will flood my brain and that's when I start looking down or else where, glaring. Focusing on something else and trying to transfer all that emotion to what I'm looking at in vain.

God this is bad.

Oh yea. This is really pre school or whatever but..

I don't care bout what you say cause I think you're duuummmmb......

[[ music ]] lollipop
[[ mood ]] crappy

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Jean Li's hand XD

Earth Hour with birthday candles

Poser brother during Earth Hour

mountain top view on kledang...

view of Ipoh city

Des's party packing horror

Bigbang~!

the miny fight

Jay Darling!

[[ show ]] batman cartoon...
[[ mood ]] chipper

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This is the noisiest house in the world.

I have an ulcer on my upper lip. This means I can't eat right. My rashes are coming back. This means I am lacking of sleep or I did or ate something wrong again. I am cranky and short fused. This means I'm tired. The roof of my mouth is injured and feels sore. This means I can't eat right.

Aside from that, I had a terrible nightmare which involves something under my bed. The dream was so realistic that now I have no guts to sleep in my own bedroom. I have no proper phone. This means no music and I can't block the noise this house makes. I hum to myself. That's how deprived I am.

I made a new email add. junnefoo@hotmail.com

who knew it was availible. I was adding some ppl and it hit me. Why in the world would any of you want to make 3 email addresses at one go. ....

[[ music ]] bolero
[[ mood ]] cranky

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Dear JunNe,

Why in the world, are you so incredibly terribly impossibly lazy? So lazy. Move la sister. Exams are always around the  corner. Is it possible that you're immune to such life threatening events? That's very bad Junne, that's very bad. Find  a solution. By hook or by crook, you have to get over this. So kick your own ass now and MOVE! Time is RUNNING OUT!!

Love,

ennuj.

[[ music ]] nobody
[[ mood ]] crappy

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Horrid train rides that soak my feet and freeze my bones accompanied by boring mammal documentaries with ugly noisy idiots playing and smoking by the door. Even that can't beat the hate mail I get from my friends...

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OKAY PEOPLE. GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT. PARK YOOCHUN DID NOT SNATCH A FAN'S CAMERA AND GOT PISSED OFF LIKE WHAT THE NEWSPAPER SAID. THE FAN WASN'T INNOCENT AND SHE SHOULD BE ASHAMED HERSELF AND GO BLIND EVERYTIME SHE SEES YOOCHUNNIE. DAMN YOU FAN GIRL.

Yoochun darling is innocent and it is proven. Someone caught it on tape too. Yoochun the great isn't some arrogant bastard who thinks he has the right to be mean to fans. Yoochun dearest is still the wonderful beautiful man who can sing. YOOCHUN RAWKS!

What really happened was that the fan keep taking pictures and disturbing them so Yoochun grab her hand to push her camera down. He told her to stop and he will return the camera to her later so she let go and let him have it. Yoochun did not snatch it. The airport man in red snatch it from Yoochun when he is trying to pass it to a DBSK staff behind them (probably to help him delete the pictures). Yoochun have no idea why the airport staff suddenly took it from him so he snatch it back saying he have to give it back to the girl later. At this point we saw Junsu's face also showed that he was surprised why that man took the camera from Yoochun.

In the end after a short but loud explanation (those of us near that area can hear since he have to speak louder over the noise) to the male airport staff, Yoochun walk into the checked in area and pass the camera to another DBSK staff who have already checked in (again.. probably to delete the pictures. Fans will know this is what they do,)

Some of us fans have seen that girl many times. Unlike most of us, she kept taking pictures of them in their face and invades their personal space. It's very rude and most of us fans will not do it. Normally fans will just wait outside music program venue to see them or wait at airport to send them off. Most of the time you can hear us telling them to have a safe journey and things like that. We usually keep our distant so as to not disturb them unless we need to pass them gifts! DBSK members actually are quite nice to their fan. They don't mind our presences or us taking picture as long as we don't block them, don't grab them or take pictures in their face. DBSK will at most just walk away quickly when they are not in the mood.

credits:deevinne

So...HAH!!! IN YA FACE TO EVERYONE WHO TOLD ME HE'S AN ASSHOLE!! DARLING YOOCHUN IS A GOOD MAN!

[[ music ]] TVXQ-You are my song
[[ mood ]] awake

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"525600 minutes,
share love, give love, spread love...
Measure life in love........."

Measure life in love. I've only got 525600 minutes a year and it's drifting away fast every second. FEEL THE LOVE EVERYONE cause life's too short to be sad! LIVEEEEE!!!!!
Man, am I being optimistic today or what? Good mood maaa... nevermind la. I love you and I hope you love me too. Today was a rainy day. It rained from bout 7.30 in the morning till 11.30. Bout 4 hours of chilly winds seeping through our class windows. Everyone seemed to have a blazer or was hugging a bag. Least I was, but I was never really a big complainer bout cold weather. Right now, I have officially nothing to say~
I'm just randomly typing cause I feel happy and I want to blog~
Tralalalallala~
I joined facebook's friends for sale bout an hour ago. The first one who bought me was Peng Han and I was labeled " Han's kickass hidung tinggi!"
Lol.
I am worth very little right now and I have no money to "buy" anyone.
*sniff*

BUY MEEEE!!! Junners Barbican in facebook!!*must not lose*

Owh well. I wonder if my price will grow or I'll be some loser which no one wants to buy but wants to be torture with.
*beams in happiness*

"seasons of loooooveee........
How do you measure the life of a woman or a man?
In the truths that she learned? Or in times that he cried?
In bridges he burnt or the day that she dieeedd...."

[[ music ]] seasons of love-Rent
[[ mood ]] amused

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How's this for a Chess Club tshirt? There's another one but my dad "mematahkan semangat saya". Dad is so mean. So i made this.

[[ music ]] broken stringss
[[ mood ]] accomplished

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Oh yeeeaaa man... I personally like this one better. It's got more me in it. What do you think? which one which one...

*APPLAUSE TO MYSELF*

Lol..I'm actually quite happy..not that sure bout the font though..

Curse my tiny arse page.... if anyone can't see it properly, please open it in a new tab or window. I want FEED BACK!

[[ music ]] 525600 minutes
[[ mood ]] accomplished

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"What are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us.."

Reminiscence. Reminisce.
I feel a little odd. Sweeter words to the ear, worry. Plain truth, selfishness. That seat next to me is still empty. I place my hand on it, I feel the cold. The once upon warm seat is now empty and cold. So here I am, still on my stool, waiting for another someone to pass by and sit next to me for awhile. Just another brittle friendship. Yes...I'm not asking for much.. brittle. That would be nice.

" it tears me up,
I try to move on but it hurts to much...
You can't play on broken strings,
You can't feel anything......."

[[ music ]] broken strings
[[ mood ]] blah

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[[ music ]] broken strings
[[ mood ]] calm

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I am feeling very unhappy nowadays.. I feel extremely gloomy. I practically feel suicidal but I don't want to be stupid.

Please don't ask me why.  I think you're a completely idiot when you ask me that. I think it's such a stupid rude question. Don't ask me why about that too. Makes me think that you're an even bigger idiot. It's just me.

I practically feel like crying but I can't and I don't know what to do.

[[ music ]] alive

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I am currently in a painful predicament. Well, it's my blog, and I have the right to rant in it after all. So for now, I shall tell all of you a long winding story bout how much I hate my life. Yea, sad isn't it. My last year of youth, high school I mean, and I'm spending all my time telling everyone how much I'm hating it and how I'm wallowing in agony everyday. Well, I suppose it's my fault that so much bleeding work piled up. But think bout it! How is it even humanly possible to finish so much work! It inconspicuously jumps on you! Can't one be oblivious for a few brief moments?! It really doesn't make sense. To all of you who say that it's possible and you did it and it's doable and it's just me who has be lingering around, procrastinating and wasting my time and it's a lie when I say that it's not humanly possible, here's some news for you. You're not human. I have Biology notes for locomotion of animals, biology WAJA paper and one biology practical experiment. And when is it due? Tomorrow. I have math homework from the text book and from the workbook. I have 3 chapters of history notes. Who in the world does history notes anyway?! And it just hit me...god damn it.. I just remembered. I have dim-witted physical education folio to do. Elephatitis or something. Dread disease. Slap me in the face. Other than that, have loads of English essays and exercises which I am NOT going to do. I know, they're only bleeding English essays. No sweat right? No qualms whatsoever right? LIES. Not when there are bout 6 essays and few books if exercises. Ridiculous. And we're STILL not done with the novel. We're moving at snail pace on English. And since the beginning of the year, I haven't done a single or understood half of what my chemistry teacher said. Please shut up her being a great teacher and stuff cause I swear to god I'm going to slap you utter another work bout it. I KNOW she's a good teacher but I tell you ah...that microphone. That microphone ah...
...
Is so toot-ing loud. So so loud. The VOLUME of that thing. Miss Cheah, you have a beautiful, loud, echoing, ringing voice. You don't need that contraption to project it any further. It's killing me.
Besides that, LIDSOC. Curse you all bout that drama competition thing. It's bout joining. It is not compulsory for form 5s to join. It ISN'T. AND you DON'T get a certificate for joining. You ONLY get it IF you need it. Dear 5 science 2 students, are you really in need of certificates? I'm not. Don't put my name in. It's as if I have to do everything. I plan, I conduct and stuff. People will help, that I'm a little sure. People will give ideas, that I'm also quite sure. But NO ONE will pop up to take charge. So please shut your trap and don't fucking tell me WHY I can't do it. I didn't even want to participate in the first place. I have a life okay.
Fine, I take that back. No life. But I have a life in SCHOOL okay. There's so much shit to do. Exams are coming! I am trying to study! Nothing is going in my head. DON'T tell me that you're having that too and you're doing other stuff. I'm not you. More the reason, I don't want to be like you! why would I want to hog responsibilities that I am not interested in, nor am I obliged to. You must be CRAZY to think that I'd go through with this. What? You think I'm just going to obey your pleas and threats and just force my way through this hell hole? You're bananas. A complete knot head.
I am so cranky. I don't have enough sleep, I'm living on tea, I can't focus on what I'm reading, I feel unprepared and I feel so...naked. All my walls have tumbled and I have nothing to protect myself with. I feel so vulnerable that I don't know what to do, where to start or how to rebuild. I'm in such a fiasco right now and you want to shove this LIDSOC CRAP AT ME AH?! I'm in science class. I don't even like this stuff! Why aren't I in arts? Simple. This opens so called ‘doors'. So I'm already dragging my way through this, trying my best to do well.
I bet you're wondering why I'm wasting my time typing this crap..... cut me some slack..
I'm in the worst mood. Please don't talk to me when you're sad or be mean to me. I'd snap. If you're jolly to me, I'd feel better. If you shove a frown in my head, just get lost..
...
God I hate my life...

My painful predicament..

p/s: i still have history essaySSS and four kerja amal moral essays + pictures + laporan +everything

[[ music ]] broken strings
[[ mood ]] depressed

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I quote from uncle Ben and PQ...

"With great powers comes great responsibility."

...

why must I be able to draw......

so..much.....work.... damn you all..YES. i AM complaining.

[[ music ]] la vie boheme
[[ mood ]] annoyed

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Today...was such a tiring day. Right from the very beginning, I knew there was something wrong today. Of all days, I woke up with a bizarre hairstyle that my sleeping position somehow gave me. It's was damn weird. Any NORMAL person would flinch seeing it. No, it's not a girl thing, it's so bad that even boys would stare if a boy had it. I pressed it down, didn't work. Clipped it down, didn't work. I even used water, the all magical being, didn't work. So I spent my whole morning while eating my short cereal breakfast, using my hands, pulling and pressing and tugging it back to a more presentable shape. Conclusion, I woke up on a really really bad hair day. Then I found out I forgot to do my report for physics PEKA experiment. Die. Do on the spot. Stupid sivics project banner on gejala social, drawn in 10 minutes. Chemistry has a work load which I can't even imagine. Demerit land, here I come. When they question me, I suppose I can just grin and tell them " MY sister said, no one's going to look at my leaving cert and MY sister says I don't have to give a damn bout your useless system to try to frighten us." If the ever asked me what else she said... "My sister also said not to take her word for it and follow my heart." Well, if the shoe fits, wear it.
The pleasurable portion of the day was after school. I sincerely didn't know that they were going to skip the EST time. So I went along with 6 more of my friends [ karmun, i-may, waiyee,suetyan and Qingx] for lunch in Ritz Hotel for the buffet. Buffet wasn't bad but I didn't suppose I ate my share of 11 bucks. I don't think I can eat that much anyway. But it was nevertheless, a nice soothing time.
Went back to class, did the LIDSOC drama thing. [foojunne,foojunne, after all that bleeding protest and you're STILL INVOLVED! Wtf aight?] two hours and we did a rehearsed draft of a love story between two people with many dumb lame moments that are suppose to make the crowd [which are 100% girls] squeal.
I retired home and slept for hours... okay. Fine. Bout 2 and a half hours. That wasn't a lot but it made me realize how bleeding tired I was. I slept like a log. That's not a very good thing I suppose. I feel sore all over. On the bright side, the throwing up feeling is gone.
Today, Dessymond pulled his rotten front to teeth as there is a tooth growing on his gum above it. He went through the procedure with no tears whatsoever which is miraculous.
*APPLAUSE*

[[ music ]] can't let go
[[ mood ]] drained

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[[ music ]] map the soul
[[ mood ]] busy

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Can you see anything behind this smilling mask?

another one of those tiring days flew by. Chemistry homework is still sitting there undone, collecting dust. Three passport sized pictures, untaken. I-may's going to murder me. I am very very tired. Damn you LIDSOC thing. I am still very reluctant, but nevertheless, involved. Lets hope something happens tomorrow or someone is absent tomorrow so we don't have to do it. I am just too lazy and exhausted to move on. If by god's grace someone's absent tomorrow, and if we don't have to do it, it'd be just great. Then the blame wouldn't be on me. Unfortunately, I suppose everyone's just too bleeding "responsible" to skip it. Monday stayback, Tuesday stayback, tomorrow stayback, thurday stayback. Everyday this week I have to spend extra time in school. So sick of it. The weather isn't being very kind either. It is extremely warm and humid and it making everyone in school sweat like pigs. This isn't a very pleasant thing I must say. It only adds to the bad mood causing more tension as just almost everyone would be complaining bout how annoying the weather is. Besides that, the Form 5's conducted their sivics project today.  It was quite successful. Everything was last minute though. We were doing a quiz for our stall and it was really easy to win. We also had music thanks to dearest Zi Hui, our head librarian. That was fun. As the stall didn't take much space, we had a space for ourselves at the back of the tent. So when classmates and friends are seen singing along to that rock music, dancing like drunk idiots, bobbing heads and a personal touch, air guitar! Lol.. there was drama in the house when I got home.

I am drained. That's the word. Drained. Completelt physically exhausted. I think I'm getting mentally weak too. I feel as if I am easily brought down. Why is this happening to me...

Ps: someone please get me Epik High- Remapping the Human Soul album. I want it so bad. Stupid credit card wont work.

[[ music ]] best of me
[[ mood ]] drained

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There is ALOT of tension in the house.... mucho arguement... muchoooo....

[[ mood ]] aggravated

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well...the worst has come.  I wish someone would spoon feed me the info like the curtsying in the picture. ADD MATH FOLIO!? WHAT IS THAT?!

write a brief history about pi.

RIDICULOUS. complete bull if you ask me.

search 5 pictures bout circles.

...........

I rest my case.

[[ music ]] i should tell you
[[ mood ]] blah

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