I am so....angry...

Just so angry.. I'm tired. I can't sleep again. I have to babysit. My parents don't understand. My exam is tomorrow. My brother is making alot of noise. He just spilled something. This is a very bad time. It's not that I don't want to go to his fun fair. It's just that it's a VERY BAD TIME. I have to study. GOODNESS! Even I know I have to! When I ask if I'm allowed not to go, they give me the whole I don't spend enough time with my brother lecture. Time? You're talking to me bout TIME?! I TEACH HIM. I COOK FOR HIM. I try so hard not to hit him. so hard.... You're guilt tricking me?! I really don't care cause you I'm scared of doing badly too! I'm so freaking scared and I'm NOT confident.

So I'm form four, and my exams aren't that tough? Just because I have sisters who are OLDER and are being tested in a higher level or learning?! so when THEY were form four, it's TOUGHER?! IF THEY CAN DO IT, I CAN?!

NO SWEAT?!

Think like that. Think I'm rebellious and I don't give a damn bout my brother. Think that I have it SO EASY.

well, I'm very sorry if I got it wrong. I don't really care anymore if you think it's me. I'm cranky. I don't understand why some poeple just have to push my buttons to make me pick up an arguement. I don't want to argue. It is very tiring. Besides that, it is also very annoying and I'm not thick skinned enough to be oblivious about it. I have a headache during the fun fair and I felt woozy. I want to cry. My brother is next to me being annoying, kicking the table, making noise, being squeaky, drawing pictures in his spelling book and looking around the room trying to talk like Woody Woodpecker.

I'm going to snap anytime.

Maybe I'm just cranky. Maybe I'm wrong. But for the time being, I am in rage...

[[ music ]] Haru haru-Big bang
[[ mood ]] aggravated

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