Choreography here is simply amazing.. :]

[[ music ]] Shawty Get Loose- Lil mama ft Chris Brown ft T Pain
[[ book ]] OUT
[[ mood ]] excited

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This is going to be a piture post.. I cleared up half of our desktop pictures today so I found some nostalgic pictures.

Ready girls... get READY!!!

cHEESE~

THE MAN OF THE HOUSE!

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* DRUM ROLLS*

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MR. FOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OUR SUPERMAN!!

now, recognise me?

my darling sisters which has changed ALOT! [foo and her old 'I'm cool' pose]

and ol Dessmond

[[ music ]] Wall to wall
[[ book ]] Out
[[ mood ]] artistic

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I am at the computer typing away right now, surrounded by a new song I just downloaded. People in msn who just signed in starts popping up at the corner of the screen. I'm still not used to the keyboard because I'm using my sister's laptop. I make a few mistakes and end up back spacing what I type bout less than a hundred times. Even though my fingers touch it, it doesn't mean I pressed it down hard enough. On the old desktop, everytime I type, I'd hear a louder 'click' sound which reasures me that I did press that button. Now, they seem like mosquitoes fighting and buzzing, irking me around my ear.

The track changes. Now it's something more hippy. I'm suppose to study now. Other than that, I'm suppose to do well too. Suppose to. I sit here in front of the laptop, feeling the cool night freeze brush through my hair, feeling uneasy. It's not that it's hard studying. It's just that when you don't want to do something, you just don't want to do it. I wanna dance now. It's a fling. I know. I'll get over it soon. I wanted to do a whole lot other things too. When I was in primary, I was addicted to anime. What would you know? I wanted to be a comic artist. I drew everyday. I could sit down with pen, pencil and paper and draw for 5 hours straight in my room. I finished a few sketch books proudly too. But it dies out in about a year and I stop. My mom told me that I'd end up in the streets, stuffing my face with bread and paint, with a pathetic satisfying smile, a blinking weak light bulb hanging and swinging above my head, on a broken stool with a few pieces of cardboard to help support it, surrounded by art. That didn't put me down actually, the fact that people would call me a loser did.

Next, I got addicted to music. Strange that it was mandarin cause I still don't understand what they're babbling about. I still have my Wang Lee Hom poster stuck firmly on my bedroom wall. It's a shade of green to blue and he's sitting there with a ear phone in his ear. He looks so happy there. He's just sitting down, listening to music. Blissing pure bliss. Then the korean wave came up after this died. TVXQ! was the one. I spent over a 1000 ringgit on them. Now I'm into Big Bang.

Even so, I during these times, I wanted to be a sound engineer or something asociated with music. From there, drift to dancing. I LOVE dancing. I would learn it with my heart. Locking, popping, gliding, breaking, everything! I oud, used to hate music so loud, it could pump through my heart, now, thanks to mms, I'm in love with it. Dancing is a wonderful way of self expression. It's music made visible. Just feel it, and move. Still, there's always a but. BUT, i can't do this. You can't dance forever and it's tough making a living through this. Learnig it takes time too so no way am I allowe to do this. Further more, it's street dance. I just can't.

Life's too short to be someone else. So, just be yourself. They make it sound so simple in movies. I really do wonder, what will I end up doing? Why am I in the science stream? I like arts. DUH! Better life? Least it's what they say. There's not enough time in life to do everything. The least you can do is not do something you regret. Do things that you think are worth it and think of the cosequences and the risks before you do it. Try your best. The reults DO matter. My sisters told me this once,

" Don't you feel a certain happy proud feeling when you do well?"

So it's kinda false when they say results don't matter and as long as you work hard on it and as long as you did your best. Results DO matter. In this family at least. I mean, no one in this family can stand being a loser.

oUt.

[[ music ]] Marron 5- won't go home without you
[[ book ]] Out
[[ mood ]] crappy

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a feeling is missing.. It hasn't been there for so long.. i forgot what it was..

I want it to come back.. fast..

[[ mood ]] grumpy

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http://img231.imageshack.us/img231/4036/negaragedikkj6.swf

yi jern made this! deng cool~

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Hello. New layout. I would like you to be bluntly honest with what you think of it. Lets go through the pictures one by one..

1.Janna, that was the first picture I saw..

-Janna Banana. You're a gem. She's this mixture of goof and sweetness that no one can ever become. She can cheer anyone up! Plus, she hugs me EVERYDAY!

2.Gwyneth, that was the clearest picture I saw

- I started sitting with her this year and in time, I know a few things about her. She's the sweetest bundle of joy anyone could ever have. I may not know everything about her, but I will. She's such and egg head!

3.Concert. TVXQ! 'O' concert in Malaysia '07. Us wearing the fan club shirt~ Ikaru, Junne and Qingx

-I had a blast . I saw Yoochun and I spent time with my friends by yelling at our idols like mad girls. It was really fun. I had a good time .

4.Me and Karyen looking up and forward to another ten years of friendship :p  

-We've been friends for.....11 years. Ahh... the good ol days.. Pranks, tears, smiles, victories, defeats..and much much more.. I've done it all side by side with this amigo~
                                                          

5.Most decent picture of darling random kisser Qingx

- Wow.. this would be peeerriiieeettiiieee long. I only knew her for what? 2 years? and we're really good friends. I love this animal I tell ya. Lol. Random kisser, tribute from Karyen. She's very special and I've spent many bitter sweet moments with her. She's like my other half sometimes as we share the same view on many things. She's got my back and I'll always have hers. I cherish every moment we spent and will spend :] We'll walk the journey called 'life' together.

6.Funny painting picture of Qingx, me and Janna on painting day

- PAINT EVERYWHERE! Faces, shirts, pants, hair..no one was spared..[maybe except Jiamin]

7.Jiamin never looks at the camera..............

-I've known this lil tomboy for 10years. To think I hated her for 8 she's the girl I fist fighted with and now she's the girl I rap Epik High songs with! She really is the best. She is one person who never ever told anyone's secret out and she's the most innocent manga lover, tablo worshipper, L.L. seeker , loyal friend I have ever and will meet.

8. Yijern NEVER smiles when I take pictures...serves you right Queen of S.T.O [sticking tongue out]

-THIS GIRL!!!!!!! I got close last year which is '07. She seems very cool and cold from the outside but she's just as goofy when she gets hyped up or when she's bored. She's a smart sore loser too!haha.. She is very smart and one can really learn alot  from her. She never smiles properly in front of my camera! She's got skin as soft as tissue but unfortunately she doesn't have a will to match! she's a hard tough girl!

9.Darling Yan... most decent picture too..

- Puiyan..the girl with inhuman reflexes. She's got such a huge personality that everyone is dying to know her. She's very sensible too and she will always be there to help with my problems.

10. My love Yangseen, my forever dancing buddy~

- I LOVE LOVE LOVE YANGSEEN!!! she's the bomb! she is the FUNNIEST person I ever met and man! can she dance! She's really cool and I'll never forget her .

11. Retarded and best most always and forever friend, Ikaru-chan!!

-karyen karyen karyen.. we've been friends for 11 years. I really don't know what I'd do without you. She is one of the most hardworking, random, weird, bubbly, brave, fierce, tempermental, cute girl I ever knew. She has done MANY amazing things...which sometimes, I don't wanna say.. You should know yourself what are the obscene things you do in class... She's also someone that really made my life in school special. She's not just a good friend, she's the best.

12. the picture karyen took of me during paint day

-hahaaaaaaaaa................................... messy messy day

13. FooVinNe , my sister and my stalk-ee.. [I take loads of funny mean pics of her >]]

- waow.. I don't know man.. she's bubbly, girly and fierce/mean at the same time. She's very very creative, I can tell you that. she's also the BIGGEST FATEST EGG HEAD IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE INFINITE UNIVERSE!!!!

14. JAY MY BEST FEMALE COMPANION!

- Aint she BEEEEAAUUTIIIFFUUUL!

15. Imay, me and karyen, F2 blissing..

- Had a real dandy day there..

16. Mean ol so called 'big sis' royal highney arse Foo and me

- Character and confidence is something that she never lacks. She's a semi role model for me. She is the most intelligent and tough person I have ever seen so far. Sure she's got her royal attitude problem switched on sometimes, but sometimes...SOMETIMES...she deserves...nope.. she doesn't. Take it alllll back. She's a wonderful funny sarcastic mean caring classy tough lousy loving sister!

17. me and my lackeys..kidding..gang..

- Had real fun that day

18. Foo in so called ever camera ready motion

-EVER CAMERA READY SHE SAYS! That's 95% true I suppose as she likes 95% of all the pictures I randomly take of her..

19. Qingx and me during camp. :]

-I'm trying to revery back to that size.. To think that this picture, was when we said..

"Okay, I'm damn tired..last picture last picture!! *snap* ooo...nice..."

20. Me and Qingx's shoes

-Randomly in HQ.. If I'm not mistaken, we were practicing 'Heart attack' for the CNY Gathering .

sidelines..

Diet Day 3:

Foo has joined me.. I have a comrade. But my comrade seems to be betraying her vows.. she ate the evil seed 'chocolate' today... OOHHHH!! WHEN WILL THIS DARK TIME END!!! WHY MUST GOD BE CRUEL AND MAKE ME GAIN WEIGHT!!! WHYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!?!??!?! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: LEE CHONG WEI WON AGAINTS KOREA!!! WE HAVE A CHANCE FOR A GOAAAALLL!!!!!too bad squash isn't in the Olympics..

ciao *sniff*

[[ music ]] Jenny-click 5
[[ mood ]] crushed

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a feminist's approach to creation

Eve, in the Garden of Eden, called out, "Lord, I have a problem."

 And the Lord said, "What's the matter Eve?"

" I know you created me and this beautiful garden. But I'm lonely - and I'm bored of eating apples."

 "Well in that case," replied the almighty, "I'll create a man for you."

 " What'a a man?"

" He's a flawed creature with agressive tendencies, an enormous ego and an inability to listen. " But he's big, fast and mascular. He'll be good at fighting, kicking a ball and hunting animals - and not bad in the sack."

" SOunds great." replied Eve.

"There's one condition," added the Lord. " You'll have to let him believe that I made him first."

 --> Reader's Digest. Laughter the Best Medicine.

[[ book ]] I know this much is true
[[ mood ]] aggravated

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Extremely irked out at the moment... Extremely. Don't like to be treated that way. Maybe it's some ego or pride bubble and someone's touching or playing with it alot trying to burst my senses out and make me impossibly angry up to the point where i would start over flowing with you know what which leads up to another lecture that I'm dumb stupid and weak, but I thank god I sucked it all in and typed all this stuff out to avoid all that shit. Why can't some people just be supportive.

P/s: Try saying the second sentence in one breathe with an angry irked tone as if your brother is making stupid screaming baby sounds in maximum volume in the background.

ciao

[[ book ]] I know this much is true
[[ mood ]] irritated

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A lot happened but I'm too tired and lazy to type it all out. Other than that, my holidays are coming to rock bottom in 2 minutes.

Any last words?

Yes. Why............

meet yoshi.

The problem is...it's not mine..

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I love Park Yoochun. Even though he has people out to get him by completely ruining his locks ,monstrous hideous sense of style, on purpose cute English and dancing, I still love him. I mean, how can you deny THIS?!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NGKARYEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU'RE 16 THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

may our friendship go on :]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzbHe49utoM&feature=related

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There are many things I would like to say. It's been what? 11 years? Yea, you know me very well. I know you too. Many things that I am uncomfortable with can be understood by you without words. Many things I do which you never question are left unquestioned because you always knew or so I thought, I'd eventually tell you. You always gave me enough time. I'm not a perfect friend. I'm the sort of person which says the harshes things at the worst moments and not even realize how much I have hurt someone. I don't think before I speak sometimes. Even though I do so many things like that, even though you too, have been treated like that, you have always stood by me. Forgiving me over my mistakes. I don't know much bout life as I haven't even lived a quarter of it but without you, I don't think I would even understand half of this quarter. Aside from being such a marvelous friend, you have also been the best at telling me the brutal truth. We are up to the point where we are completely honest to each other not caring if we would hurt each other. If she thinks it's ugly, she says it, and vice versa. Over the years, you have also been the best of ears. You listen to my rants continuosly and repeatedly. You have no idea how much I appreciate it. To know that even when I am nothing, I would still have you to lean on. To know that when I am at my peak of breaking down, I would have you to kick my ass and tell me to get a hold of myself. To know that when I stand alone, I'd always have you to support me. The stupid party is really nothing. It's worth it. Don't ask me why I did it and say how bad you feel. I've been your friend and asshole for 11 years now. It's nothing. I don't care if you can't do anything in return. I just want you to know I understand. Don't tell me what you can or cannot do. Just don't tell me. I don't want to know. I just needed to know that you had a time of your life and I just want you to appreciate it. All of us who planned it just wanted that. You are a sweet, kind, smart, beautiful and thoughtful person. I would've never asked for more.

Love you Karyen!

We ALL do!!

[[ mood ]] accomplished

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My brother is a troll snitch.

He snitches like a troll.

yeck!

[[ music ]] Play my music
[[ book ]] I know this much is true
[[ mood ]] crappy

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